I want to relive those moments again. Missing it so much.

Recently, I attended a residential youth convention. What fun it was. First time away from home and family, though it was only 6 days but it felt like lifetime, both to my parents and ofcourse me. When I came home, everything felt new and different. We learnt so much, we had so much fun, made a lot of good friends, ate great food and we danced a lot. Learned so much about life in such a short span. Lots of realizations. Learning about different issues and meeting people from diverse cultures was so intellectually satisfying. Also got to know what improvements I need in my personality. We had three people who were deaf and dumb. It was so much fun learning sign language from them and interacting with them. They are just like us, little different in a special way and they are so graceful and sometimes so naughty =p. Great experience. I am missing everything about that place.

I want to relive the whole experience. Even small things. I want to pack, unpack and repack my bag, get irritated of my roommate’s habit, get emotional at last day and DANCE again.

I am missing everyone so much.

Can I shed a tear or two? Please?!

 

Pottie and Taggie

While Shakira is singing ‘Hips Don’t Lie’ and Beyone is finding her ‘Beautiful Liar’, NRP(not responsible pakistanis) Ghulam MQM not-so-rahim and Gunda Bhai Saheb are sounding insanely donkey-ish liar butts. The only good advice for all the constipated fundos are that they should do potties. And I am damn serious.

So for a change, I am not reporting anything. If you want to see my views you can read the post of Unaiza at KMB and then my comments too. For a change, I want to be happy. I love tagging.

And brownie wali heewa wants to fill this tag and I am like anytime buddy.

three things that scare me:

1. Hurting and losing my loved ones.
2. Failure of not putting my best in something.
3. Heights, Water and Dogs(our family doesn’t get along with them).

three people who make me laugh:

1. I’ll say… myself. lol
2. Paindoos
3. People like Fasi Zaka and NFP

three things i love:

1. Art and Philosophy - photography, movies, music
2. reading and writing
3. self-development seminars (aspiring to be a trainer)

three things i hate:

1. Sinus
2. The monkey man - George W. Bush
3. the narrowminded unethical SICK people
(I guess 2 and 3 are more sort of THINGS than humans)

three things i don’t understand:

1. how can you live your life without any purpose!
2. how can people neglect their parents!
3. frandship requests from strangers, saas bahu dramas, insane materialsm and consumerism

three things on my desk:

1. mess (papers, stationary, tissues, spray bottle, prepay card that I have already used, 10 rupees note, law notes, used battery cell, nic copy and other useless things —> damn I can’t find my specs)
2. my adorable CANON A620 Digital Camera
3. my cellphone

three things i am doing right now:

1. playing with the dandruff in my hair.
2. watching Abida Parveen’s Mind-Blowing Performace of The Aurora Awards at HUMTV.
3. worrying about exams for which I haven’t even start preparing.

three things i want to do before i die:

1.
2. live alone.
3. live in florence for a month. ( like a queen, i might add :P)

three things i can do:

1. write
2. speak
3. create

three things you should listen to:

1. Abida Parveen’s Music seriously!
2. your consciousness, inner voice, human values whatever you name it.
3. the wisdom of others, and yours too.

three things i’d like to learn:

1. Salsa
2. Film Making
3. Overcoming the fears and procrastination

three favourite foods:

Now this is cheating only 3.
1. Okay I start with DHOKHRA
2. biryani, karahi, pizza — all chicken-ish
3. peaches, cake and donuts

three beverages i drink regularly:

1. water
2. water
3. water
Btw I can drink peach juice everyday if it wasn’t a seasonal food.

three tv shows/books i read as a child:

1. There was one book called SHARING. That was my first book that I issued from a library and read it like bazillion times. I went there again few days ago and read it again, just to cherish the memories.
2. There was some PTV program on Science. (Yes I was born nerd.)
3. Hum Paanch =p (We didn’t had the cable television then so I used to rent it’s videos =p) Then there was also pink panther, popeye, tom and jerry, swat kats and puppet shows.

I tag:

Unaiza, Zenia, Sid and Fairy Dust

 

Complexity Within!

I know I am deeply blessed by God.

I am kind of wild and loud type of person, do things which people feel weird but which are deeply satisfying and important to me as a person. Individualist and creative people are never understood. The problem is that they don’t care about what society thinks, a big problem for society because they ride over unnecassary social laws. I push my limits so I can extend my boundaries. I can fit in easily but still I can’t fit in. People still consider me alien or atleast not a usual person. I know I am not like others and that is what makes me special and I really cherish that but I hate it when people point out my weaknesses which aren’t that important to be discussed, they are not weaknesses, just a different perspective. I talk aloud, mark my mark and leave people making them think too much. Proud to people, very humble inside and in this mix gets ignored at most of the places. Everybody wants appreciation for their contribution and its okay and its not a proud freak stuff. Very much modern and liberal, but oldfashioned where I need to be. Actually that is what people say is oldfashion but in reality it isn’t. I follow MTV but don’t get brainwashed. I am one hell of a complicated person who loves to learn and has a childlike enthusiasm. Gets bored with things easily but not relationships. What to learn everything he finds exciting. Excited by the choice but a victim of choice too. What to do and what not to do when you want to do everything you can do.

With such personality, you know people will bitch and it’s alright completely, still it hurts. I am becoming socially unsocial. Internet and ACCA(because we don’t study as normal people do and we have no campus life whatsoeva!) has even made it worse. I am becoming isolated. I am at the extreme vulnerability of becoming a depressed individual.

And this complex person wants to reach the perfection that humans can achieve not Godly perfection but humanely yes! I guess much is expected from me. It has always been like you should be come first. Spotlight should be on your humble soul.

I have lost my mind in search in this thinking cum worrying process. I worry alot about the future. Planning is okay but I am pushing it too far I guess.

I know you wouldn’t understand much of it. Not even if you read between the lines. I also have to read it again and comprehend.

 

Finally we saw an option =p

After a long time I had the privelege of self-punishment. I watched Star Plus ‘K’ Drama Series. Yes I have just escaped from a fainting attack accompanying a million-dollar realization. I mean what they show can be seen on our channels too so why not see them there with a dose of comedy, insanity and if you like more obscenity because these dramas are already obscene. No, not those channels but our best comedy channel. Ohh don’t waste your time, if you are thinking something like ‘do we have a comedy channel in Pakistan’.. did you forget FILMAZIA. Yes Saas-Bahu shows are modern version of comedy Maula Jutt and Buda Gujar films. The same melodrama, the same revenges, the same shouting-yelling-screaming, the same music score with alot of zoom angles and tons of slaps - Just language, sets and costumes are different. I didn’t know they can copy us so well that we hadn’t ever got a clue before.