What to do?!

I so miss reading novels and writing short stories and articles. I should take some time out and resume. But the asal masla is that I don’t even have time to study =P

 

I am FAT again and it is putting a very negative toll over my body, health and clothes. And now I am worried. I am worried about everything. My weight, my exams, my career and everything. I am completely messed up, ALL BECAUSE OF ME!!!

I won’t be saying anything about EMERGENCY because Pakistan has been in the state of emergency since 1947. Our leaders haven’t done much. Democracy has failed numerous times. Tailored Democracy will be better. Musharraf has done pretty good for Pakistan and also done a lot of bad by taking decisions at the wrong time - pretty late. He goes into extreme sides. He needs to get into moderation. He can do a lot if he wants to. He Don’t compromise on Defense but you can still lower that fact, discipline the media because it has created anormous confusion on political and religious grounds, just kill the bloody mullahs, invest more on education and health which masses need and it is the only way you can ensure future growth.

God bless!

 

Din hi kharab hai

Aaj ka din hi kharab hai

Pehle toh emergency lag gayi. Not a shocker because I guess our politicians need it. I have lost hope in our politicians. I haven’t lost hope on democracy. A military person can also impose democracy if wants to. Uniform doesn’t worry me at all not the person but the attitude make the whole difference. Lekin main baat yeh hai ke channels kyun band kar diye. At least Dawn News and HUM TV should be on the idiot box because they don’t telecast stupidity at all. I know this emergency is all against freedom of all kinds but then were we free before, I guess no so the situation is kind of similar - maybe for better than worse because I don’t like Political Shows where you excuse and abuse and Religious programs are toh out of limits - causes indigestion.

Secondly, Indian Version of Dancing with the Stars fails upto my expectation as far as results are concerned. The contestants are good this time.. better from the first season but how can you eliminate Sudha Chandaran. She was the best. She has the finesse, technique, expression, stances and body language. She did all that with an artificial limb after 22 years. A lot of overrated and undeserving are still going pretty much for the title. This is completely unfair. She should have gotten more marks from Judges so that she could be secured and I feel so bad for her. Her choreographer was also awesome. Btw I have always loved Dance as an art form.

Thirdly, Fahad’s Hard Disk has also crashed. Bichara, I can so understand what he might be going through. Allah usko sabar de.

DIN HI SALA KHARAB HAI AAJ!

 

:(

I lost my tooth.
Cries.
I have to roam around without my tooth for a month. That would be embarrasing.
I wished I would have taken care of my root canal.
Cries.

And there is no tooth fairy, I tell ya!

If anyone wants a comedy character for post-action cartoonic scene, please don’t contact me though I look like one.

Cries.

 

Har cheez main CONFUSED.

It makes me sad.
It makes me angry-errrr.

Government and Political parties were already my pride-of-the-prejudice and now lawyers have also become blacklisted with their black coats in my list. Fighting with people of your own profession, ripping one fellow lawyer’s clothes and abusing the journalist(comprising a good chunk of international press) with swearing and violence is what they have learned from their education. Aur seekhain ge bhi kia from our useless hopeless and everything-less education system. Is this professionalism?! Sab jaahil hain kasam se, jaise bhi hon har type ke dange fasaad aur buraiyon main no.1 PHDs. Pata nahi kis baat ki shaan manatey hain. Yeh toh political stuff hai, when they make things out of religious biasness tab toh aur sharminda kar dete hain. Civilized and cultured from no angle. Arts is non-existent. Awareness is nil. Neither open-minded nor open-hearted, hote toh thori naa aisa horaha hota. People themselves are gutter. Jab dekho khud ka hi mazaak manatey hain aur phir hastey rehte hain. Pakistanis say why youth thinks they want to leave Pakistan and settle abroad, the answer is because of the bloody system and don’t ever forget it is not only government but people who make the system.

*takes a huge breath*

 

Complexity Within!

I know I am deeply blessed by God.

I am kind of wild and loud type of person, do things which people feel weird but which are deeply satisfying and important to me as a person. Individualist and creative people are never understood. The problem is that they don’t care about what society thinks, a big problem for society because they ride over unnecassary social laws. I push my limits so I can extend my boundaries. I can fit in easily but still I can’t fit in. People still consider me alien or atleast not a usual person. I know I am not like others and that is what makes me special and I really cherish that but I hate it when people point out my weaknesses which aren’t that important to be discussed, they are not weaknesses, just a different perspective. I talk aloud, mark my mark and leave people making them think too much. Proud to people, very humble inside and in this mix gets ignored at most of the places. Everybody wants appreciation for their contribution and its okay and its not a proud freak stuff. Very much modern and liberal, but oldfashioned where I need to be. Actually that is what people say is oldfashion but in reality it isn’t. I follow MTV but don’t get brainwashed. I am one hell of a complicated person who loves to learn and has a childlike enthusiasm. Gets bored with things easily but not relationships. What to learn everything he finds exciting. Excited by the choice but a victim of choice too. What to do and what not to do when you want to do everything you can do.

With such personality, you know people will bitch and it’s alright completely, still it hurts. I am becoming socially unsocial. Internet and ACCA(because we don’t study as normal people do and we have no campus life whatsoeva!) has even made it worse. I am becoming isolated. I am at the extreme vulnerability of becoming a depressed individual.

And this complex person wants to reach the perfection that humans can achieve not Godly perfection but humanely yes! I guess much is expected from me. It has always been like you should be come first. Spotlight should be on your humble soul.

I have lost my mind in search in this thinking cum worrying process. I worry alot about the future. Planning is okay but I am pushing it too far I guess.

I know you wouldn’t understand much of it. Not even if you read between the lines. I also have to read it again and comprehend.

 

Shame Shame!

We now know that it wasn’t a natural death but still posting these stolen lines from somewhere. I love ‘em =D. Whateva the case maybe, this still holds true.

 

Mujhe koi es gutter se nikalo!! (Part two)

This time literally.

When it’s raining, and the person sitting next to you in the bus is sleepy, one uncle is continuously talking with a young stranger and the stranger is completely bored and irritated, one person is complaining about the condition of roads, other person is fighting with other person on the year in which it rained the most in Karachi, and I am laughing seeing people’s condition/misery and what is awaiting for me next. Can it be funnier than this?

It rained for I guess only 50 or so minutes or maybe even less and the whole karachi screwed up. The area where I live a.k.a. North was flooding, literally flooding. Sab kuch todh ke rakh diya, khushaal pakistan my foot, jaisa hai aisa bhi rehne dain toh ganeemat hai! Half of me is in the water, muddy, gross, gutter water and that also floating with God knows where will be the potholes. Why the hell did I decide to wear those off-white pants?! By the time, I was home, it was equivalent to light-poo colored. Cars stuck, kids on the road screaming and all helpless. I had to cross roads filled with water. At every crossroad, waited for 10 minutes to figure out how to pass safely. People makes facing, abusing authorities and what not and yours truly is smiling, not only smiling by laughing.

Pehle toh khuda ke vaastey es tarah ki todh podh ban karo. Sewerage lines ban karo taakey humko gutter main rehne ki pakki addat hojaye aur aisey experiences ko hum roz enjoy karein

En sab se pehle Cricket ko ban karo. Kasam se hamari nakara team se toh gali main bachey acha khelte and that without any lassi, coach or doping. Coach bichare ko bhi heartache de diya. Coach aur en faarig logon per jitne paise lagate hain utna hi education per lagao phir dekho. Waisey hi I hate cricket, ab toh I hate it even more. Aur hamarey log, they rely on cricket team as if they will change the course of the world. Cricket team jeetay gi toh bhi tumhain kuch nahi milne wala material or immaterial. Agar satta lagaya hoga public ne toh bhi nahi kuch mile ga, ulta paise doob jaye ge kyunke yeh team manhoos hai jaise kyunke saas bhi kabhi bahu thi hai! Sab kuch ban kardo. I guess es law-minister ki besharmi ke baad aur en sab harqaton ke baad mujhe bhi kuch gaaliyaan seekh leni chahiye. Achi investment hogi, it will pay off really nicely I guess. Kaam ayegi sach main. Aur added advantage ban bhi nahi hogi.

Sab kuch ban kardo. Now soon a day will come when will be proudly called banistan, corruptistan, blacklisted-istan. Our country needs surf-excel kyunke daag toh achey hote hain. Where are we heading? Read the board, Welcome to gutter-land.

Aur main tumlogon ko itni entertainment de raha hoon do posts se, koi toh bolo it makes you laugh. Ek toh waise hi koi comment karta nahi hai. Kitne kanjuice ho sab. Btw if that criteria makes you that juicy creature then I am the Kanjuice-st of all =p

 

Mujhe koi es Gutter se nikalo!

The worst thing happened to ‘Media and Information’ in few past years is PEMRA and PTA. PEMRA has done a complete satyanas of Television Channels by allowing them to air everything undesirable including saas bahu dramas and banning all that which should be showed like opinions on the current justice drama. Whereas, PTA is already famous from banning everything blindly. This is so sad that our higher authorities don’t have brains enough to do things strategically and sanely. Those authorities just want to protect government’s image in e-burkhas which never work. Saarey blogs ko ban kardiya hadh hogayi. Loose Motions!

Enlightened Moderation, my foot, see the language of Law Minister with all the freedom of dirty speech and when it comes to general public’s freedom of speech, it is completely absent. Even if you want to write or speak responsibly and honestly kick/ban/shameshame is all you’ll get. And what has happened now, has even taken all the respect I had for our president. Though he has done alot for the country but with Double standards, Kachra!

In all this mess uper se, this DIS-’connect communications’ DSL has done all the khanakharab of my blog. I can’t access it without proxy and I am completely outdated and started to lose interest. Allah janey humlogon ka kya hoga?

 

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PART I

If you have read my blog before, You must know how much I love tagging. This time I tagged myself to tag this. All the people in the sidebar are tagged too. There are few left. I want everyone to get switched to wordpress.

If I were..
If I were a month I would be:
December though my birthday is in August so any of ‘em will do =p

If I were a day of the week I would be:
Friday

If I were a time of day I would be:
Sunset

If I were a planet I would be:
Jupiter

If I were an animal I would be:
Any White Bird

If I were a direction I would be:
North

If I were a piece of furniture I would be:
Couch

If I were a sin I would be:
Sarcasm

If I were a historical figure I would be:
I had three white hair since birth so I am already a historical figure. That is what people say everytime I slip this fact out from my mouth.

If I were a liquid I would be:
Coffee

If I were a tree I would be:
A tree with a hug trunk which you can hug.

If I were a flower/plant I would be:
Motya

If I were a kind of weather I would be:
Winter

If I were a musical instrument I would be:
Guitar or Sitaar

If I were an emotion I would be:
Hope

If I were a color I would be:
Orange

If I were a vegetable/fruit I would be:
Peach

If I were a sound I would be:
Music and if you don’t consider it sound then Laughter

If I were an element I would be:
Water

If I were a car I would be:
Toyota Corrolla

If I were a song I would be:
Yeh Honsla Kaise Jhukey - DOR
until anything else inspires me
but If I had to be a composition I would be..
She will be loved - Maroon 5

If I were a movie I would be directed by:
Mehreen Jabbar

If I were a book I would be written by:
Paulo Coelho because Kahlil Gibran is dead.

If I were a food I would be:
Chocolate

If I were a place I would be:
Paris/New York

If I were a material I would be:
Jute

If I were a taste I would be
Bitter-Sweet

If I were a scent I would be:
Beach Breeze

If I were a word I would be:
Creativity

If I were an object I would be:
Camera

If I were a body part I would be:
Eyes

If I were a facial expression I would be:
A sad stare

If I were a cartoon character I would be:
Uncle Fester, you can’t be anything more fun and crazy

If I were a shape I would be a:
Leaf

If I were a number I would be:
1.0

PART II
Today is our high school convocation. Though it should have happened two years before but its better late than never. I am so excited, just to meet friends and all. I hope the night goes great. Horoscope says you will party all night with friends. W00t! I so seriously miss campus life.

PART III
Just came back from convocation. It was good meeting people. Old schoolmates. Specially those who I met actually after 2 years.. doosrey toh milte rehte hain idhar udhar. It was more of an annual dinner than a convocation. Shukhar hai we got a momento, kuch toh rahega college ki taraf se kuch memories main. I was loud as ever, even with the sore throat. Talking and blabbering about endless stupid childish things. I think I should grow up and talk lil less and make those serious faces. Naa! God help me and people around me - why do I have such a personality. Just spend one day with me and you’ll know how crazy and different I am, both in a good and bad(thinks about it again) way. Ohh and the girls liked my eye-brow piercing even those who said that I will look bad if I get it.. Yaay!! Now my throat hurts and my head aches so I better sleep.